It's dandelion digging time of year again... and the analogy always grabs me. Today, I read a great quote from Thabite Anyabwile in his chapter, "Cosmic Treason: Sin and the Holiness of God," in the book "Holy, Holy, Holy: Proclaiming the Perfections of God." It's a great dandelion digger!
"at the heart of all sin is a contemptuous attitude toward the person and the work of God, and toward His holiness and righteousness in particular.... It is not retaining the knowledge of God in our lives, in our hearts, and in our affections. It is the suppressing of the knowledge of God, as Paul describes it in Romans 1. We are to be consumed with love for God and the desire to worship Him, but because we're sinners and misshapen in our sin, our contempt for Him manifests itself at the most basic level of not thinking about Him, but delighting in sin. That is why sin is treasonous."
O God, root this treason out of my heart! It often springs up like so many weeds. Give me eyes to see You! Holy Spirit be my constant reminder. Thank You for Jesus who was crushed for MY iniquity. As I memorize Romans 1, may it be medicine for my soul. May I not become contemptuously callous!!!!!
We are not able to change worldviews and transform culture and save 1.6 million children.
We are not able to reform the judiciary or embolden the legislature or mobilize the slumbering population.
We are not able to heal the endless wounds of godless ideologies and their bloody deeds.
But, O God, You are able!
And we turn from reliance on ourselves to You. And we cry out to You and plead that for the sake of Your name, and for the sake of Your glory, and for the advancement of Your saving purpose in the world, and for the demonstration of Your wisdom and Your power and Your authority over all things, and for the sway of Your Truth and the relief of the poor and the helpless, act, O God. This much we hunger for the revelation of Your power. With all our thinking and all our writing and all our doing, we pray and we fast. Come. Manifest Your glory."
"Alas! all our business in this world is to get well to heaven; and God hath appointed us to be guides to His people; to help them safe thither. If this be well done, all is done; and if this be not done, we are for ever undone. The Lord knows how short a time you and I may be together; and therefore it concerns us to do what we can for our own and your salvation before we leave you, or you leave the world. All other business in the world is but as toys and dreams in comparison of this."
last week, i went to see our local high school's performance of "bye, bye birdie." there were some funny parts, but my overall impression was that i came away from it "unsettled." still, i think i totally missed the real point until a friend described her character to me: "I just think she's silly. Lots of people fixate on [someone] or something to fill voids in their lives. It just seems goofy because he's a rock star."
BOOM! she hit the nail on the head and kind of gave me a verbal gut-punch all at the same time. you would think that when i've been spending the last month or so noticing verses like 1 Corinthians 10:14 & 1 John 5:21, i would have gotten it. or God's mocking tone in Isaiah 44:9-20 (which i recently highlighted in a message i was preaching) which is so very similar to the point of the musical.
why was it unsettling? because of the rampant nature of idolatry in our culture? maybe to degree that was why. or was it a little closer to home? because i am so prone to idolatry myself? BINGO!!!and what is idolatry? when something or someone - even something good - becomes ultimate - ie. taking the place that ONLY God should occupy. oftentimes, my biggest idol is me - my will, my control, my intelligence, my righteousness, my sufficiency, my problem solving, my schedule, etc. etc. etc. - other times it's something that totally captures my focus - sporting events, information, friendships, ministry! when i find my value and my identity in these things rather than in Christ, this is idolatry. (and it's such an emotional roller coaster)
so what's the answer? sometimes i need to be reminded that i'm the silly girl. more than that, i need to constantly be reminded of the gospel - Christ, the true King who is seated on the real throne, died to pay for my idolatry AND to set me free from it's control. i need to heed the command of Hebrews 12:1-2 and fix my eyes on Him.
praise God for His good word. praise God for musicals. praise God for friends to set me straight when my thinking is skewed. praise God for His never failing forgiveness and grace. praise God for hearing a song by Bleach yesterday to help remind me of the truth. praise God for the words of J.D. Greear that i read on the plane today that really helped to wrap up the train of thought. and God help me, because i know that Your repeated warnings are for a trap that's so easy for me to step into.
sufficient by bleach:
"And just to taste forgiveness to taste Your mercy on my lips. I long to know contentment burdens lifted You promised it. Let it reach my heart, please let it reach my heart... And just at the right time Your hand of mercy reaches down. Hallelujah, You are sufficient! Hallelujah, You are sufficient!
And I will sing at the top of my lungs... I will sing, and I hope it heals my heart. Yeah I hope it heals my heart.
How did I get here? Save me from this. How did I get here? Won't You save me from this? Won't you save me? Won't you save me? Jesus, save me... It is well, it is well. It is well with my soul. Save me.
Jesus, name above..."
"Repentance includes a plea for God to change your inconsistent, divided heart." J. D. Greear
Today is May 1, so i am at the point of beginning another read through of the book of Psalms, and you probably start to wonder, 'ok, you've done this for awhile now, haven't you pretty much already got it? especially the familiar ones???" Well, praise God, today i was once again rewarded with making a brand new connection - seeing something glorious and encouraging!
Let me first start by stating that i LOVE Psalm 1 - it's right there with 19, 119 & 130 as one of my favorites (followed closely by 2, 8, 24 & 107). i began my thinking today in some of the normal places - the contrast of where my input comes from (Psalm 1:1-2), the words "delight" and "meditate" (my heart and my head), but THEN I SAW IT: the connection between verses 2 & 3 and their tie in to Revelation 22:1-2:
The blessed man who delights in the law and meditates on it is like a tree... a tree by a stream, a tree bearing seasonal fruit, a tree with unwithering leaves!
Mark has been preaching from Revelation on Sunday evenings, and he was in chapter 21 and the beginning of 22 this past week, so chapter 22 is fresh in my head. How is the tree of life described? Planted by the river of the water of life, yielding fruit every month & with leaves for healing the nations!
So cool to think that that's what i can be like: the tree of life! God, may Your Word dwelling in me and working through me be a source of life, good fruit and healing! May I be blessed and a source of blessing!
so, for the past several years, I have worked on creating a bed of lilies along the fence line between my neighbor's and my yards. this bed serves a couple of purposes:
i have no weed whacker, so this creates an easier edge for mowing than running along a chain link fence.
this area allows me to preserve some of Pap's plants on my own property - his bigger lily bed is in the part of the yard that is now part of my other neighbors' property - so i transplanted quite a few starts (i've also kept my eyes open for deals in the local greenhouses on unique or different varieties! AND i even got a start from the lady we served on our mission trip to WV last summer :) ).
i really like flowers/growing stuff - and lilies are perennials which provide lovely greenery as well as an amazing variety of colors.
enter the antagonist. my neighbors' (the ones whose yard is NOT separated from mine by a fence) have a new puppy. she loves to run up and down the fence line to mess with my other neighbor's dogs. this is not conducive to the growth of plants (either lilies or the asparagus crop nearer to the house). i have tried several preventative methods: yelling, "hey, stay over there!" (not effective), talking to the neighbors about my concern (they tied her up, she gets loose), erecting one of those little white, metal interlocking fences from wal-mart (she's learning to jump it). honestly, it's pretty discouraging to see quite a bit of work and effort going to waste. HOWEVER, and most importantly, i keep in mind that my neighbors need to know Jesus, more than i need pretty flowers. o God, may i be faithful in planting gospels seeds and may they grow and bloom even if my lilies don't!
those opening paragraphs are really just a picture - an introduction to the main focus of my meditation and prayer this morning: Matthew 13:1-23 (especially verses 18-23). these verses which comprise the parable of the sower and its explanation are some of the most sobering for someone who spends his life sowing the seed of the word. to read of 75% of the soils being in reality bad soil can be a discouraging thing. however, i am reminded of Jesus' reply to the disciples disparaged cries of "Who then can be saved?", "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." (Matthew 19:25-26)
and so i pray as another season of seed sowing draws to a close (and especially for those with whom we spent countless hours of scripture memorization): O God, give understanding - may this word stick with them (not in one ear and out the other/quickly forgotten) - do not let the evil one snatch away the precious word. i pray for roots - for the hard work of their development through stoney hearts. may you replace those stoney hearts with hearts of flesh. i pray protection for the tender shoots which are growing - praying against those chokers, the cares of the world and the deceitfulness of riches (and yes, Lord, this is my main worry for this group of which the neighbors' dog reminds me). may these precious ones bear fruit - abundant and lasting fruit. thank You for other sowers and waterers (and forgive me for my pride in often thinking that i am the only or most competent one)! thank You that You are the one who makes the seed to grow (and forgive me for forgetting that and thinking too highly of myself)! thank You that i can always trust Your faithfulness and that Your word accomplishes its purpose! in the precious name of Jesus, the main content of the word. amen.
Matthew 7:24-27; John 15:1-17; 1 Corinthians 3:5-9
well, the calendar is turning as it always does. and although this is usually a week of reflection on the past year for me (actually, this is usually the week that we are at nationals), with camp being early in June, my mind has also started moving toward next year's material - specifically Romans.
i have started to refresh/memorize some and even to write some cards. then, this morning during my reading, i was reflecting on the fact that most of the books currently in my stack are pretty academic and that i could use a devotional addition to help warm my heart. well, i found a little gem sitting in my unread box that fits right in: "To the Glory of God: A 40-Day Devotional on the Book of Romans" by James Montgomery Boice. i love Boice's commentaries and this book of excerpts from his 4 volume Romans set should be good for dipping my toes in the gospel stream. when i read this quote in the preface, i was encouraged that i am making a wise choice:
"We all fear change, of course. It makes us anxious. But change is precisely what we need. If we are spiritually moribund, we need to be brought from a state of spiritual death into a state of spiritual life through the gospel. If we are lethargic in our discipleship, we need to be awakened to the glories of a renewed life in Christ. If we are indifferent to the spiritual state of others, we need to be alerted to their peril apart from Christ and be moved to take the gospel to them."
Praise God! May His word do His work in me and in those around me! I'm excited for Romans, for camp, for Mark preaching through Romans at church and for the year to come!
